Weigh in day

It's Wednesday and that means it's weigh in day. Yay!!!

I'm down to 90.9kgs!!!!!!!!!!! That's a loss of 1.5kgs this week!

Only 1kg until the 80s! It's a huge milestone for me. Not the end by a long shot (can't wait until I enter the 70s!) but it's still an achievement. Yay!

Saturday I ate:
Half a tuna pattie (tuna, egg, grated cheese, herbs and spices) with ranch dressing
Bought Chinese food - I had the veggies, some breaded chilli chicken (tried to pick the breading off), satay chicken skewers and beef and broccoli

Sunday I ate:

Monday I ate:
Protein shake
Shepherd's pie
Caesar salad (bought)

Tuesday I ate:
Protein shake
Shepherd's pie
Glass of white wine

Today I ate:
1 1/2 Protein shake
Chicken wrap (in wheat wrap)
3tsp cream

Good weigh in

Yay the weigh in this week was good! :) I came in at 92.4kgs. Woohoo! So my starting weight of 103.2kgs is now 10.8kgs lower!!!

I've had one person comment on my weight loss, my beautician. No-one else has said anything. I do like it when it's not mentioned (otherwise I kind of feel like a side-show) but at the same time, I wonder if I am physically changing that much.

A nice compliment happened at work recently: I wear a uniform at work and every two years we are eligible for a top up. I ordered a size 16 shirt and a size 18 shirt. The girl putting in the order said I was ridiculous ordering a size 18 and she wants to change it to a 16. It's sweet that she thinks I'm not huge.... but I'm worried my new shirts will be too tight lol

So it's a double edged sword ;)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Burrito mix with tomato cheese and sour cream
2 tsp cream and 1 tsp ABC spread
Tuna patty with ranch dressing

Thursday:
1/2 Protein drink
Chicken and mushrooms with artichoke dip
Ham cheese and tomato omelette (bought)

Wednesday:
Protein drink
Burrito mix with tomato cheese and sour cream
Eggs with leftover lamb kebab contents

Tuesday:
Protein drink
Chicken and mushrooms with artichoke dip
Lamb kebab in Turkish bread (the proper fluffy stuff)

Monday:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie
Protein drink
3 tsp cream

Sunday:
Two eggs and bacon with tomato sauce

Saturday:
Ham cheese and tomato omelette (bought)

Going to have to make a change...

I'm still upset about my weight loss. Should I be? Except for this week, I've consistently lost weight. The amount changes, but the fact that it's always a loss has been consistent.

But I still thought it would happen much faster. I mean I'm losing weight in the hundreds of grams! And the low hundreds....

Why aren't I closer to a kilo a week? How come other people can lose at that weight but I can't?

I'mm cutting corners, aren't I...

... I'm not counting any carbs at all, I'm just monitoring food groups. I'm not counting milk in tea or coffee whatsoever...

... I just don't want to have to monitor things closely. I don't want to have to weigh and measure, I don't want to have to cut down on the amount of milk I have in my drinks, or swap it for cream.

I find counting foods just so much work that I actually lose motivation and throw in the towel. At least this way I am losing something.

Hmmm so I have some decisions to make.....

Why?

So no good news this week. Not only did I not have a loss, but I had a 200g GAIN!!

Of course there is a good reason - at the Hen's Night on Saturday I had lots to drink, including in sugary cocktails, I ate biscuits and chips, and everything else. Then the following day I had left over chips and orange chocolate liqueur log. And other chocolates.

I got back on track Monday which is excellent. But yes, I do have to pay for those two days. It sucks.

I really did hope that this weight loss would move along a lot faster. It's really quite disappointing.

Why is it going so slow? Why? :(

So you know what I ate on Saturday and Sunday

Monday:
Protein drink
Lamb veggie soup
Small serving burrito meat with tomato and sour cream

Tuesday:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie

Wednesday:
Protein drink
Beef stroganoff
Small serving shepherd's pie

Today:
Protein drink
Burrito mix with tomato and sour cream and cheese
Piece of bacon and half a tomato

Another update

Well I am eating ok and still exercising, other than that I don't know how well I am doing.

There is a bit of carb creep going on, I need to get that OUT.

And it showed in this weeks' weigh in - 93.6kgs.

If anyone has a good memory, that is the same as last week.

It's possible my body works on a fortnightly rotation though? I'm getting the impression that it's only every second week that I am pleased with the weigh in.

Wed:
1/2 protein drink
2 x ham cheese and salad wraps
2 x ham cheese and salad wraps
2 x tbsp cream

Thur:
1/2 protein drink
Burrito mix with tomato, cheese and sour cream

Tues:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie
2 tbsp cream
2 thick slices of cheese

Mon:
Protein drink
Burrito mix with tomato, cheese and sour cream
2 tsp cream

Sun:
Tuna patty
2 x ham cheese & salad wrap

Sat:
Chicken stroganoff
Chicken wrap (bought)
Lots of diet coke

Fri:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie
Tuna patties and veggies


I'm in two minds about the cream. Should I try limiting it, or is it ok? Part of me thinks it's ok because it's keeping my calories up and I do have a tendency to undereat, the other part of me thinks that the carbs are too high in it....

Weigh in day

So today was weigh in day. Ok actually that was yesterday but I got up and left for work on auto-pilot - forgot all about it.

So.... I have good news! I came in at 93.6kgs! That's a loss of 1.1kgs this week! I'm pretty chuffed about that.

It wasn't until I was driving to work that it hit me though... I'm only 3.6kgs away from the 80s! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!

TOM also started today. I have my bloating the week before and lose it in time for TOM so I think that's the reason. At least that makes me feel better about the piddly little loss last week ;)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie

Backtracking again

Saturday I ate:
Prawn coconut curry
Kebab with salad

Sunday I ate:
Bacon & eggs with mushrooms
Shepherd's pie

Monday I ate:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie

Tuesday I ate:
Mexican meat with sour cream and tomato and cheese
Chicken stroganoff

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken stroganoff
3 tsp cream

28 October 2011

Well I haven't had the happiest week this week.

I mean life-wise it has been fine, but I have been financially strained and my weigh-in didn't go so well.

I haven't gained! ... but it could have been more significant.

I woke up late on Wednesday and rushed off to work without even thinking about weighing, so that had to wait until Thursday. And Thursday showed I'd lost the HUGE amount of ... wait for it... 300g. Seriously, 300g.

I am now 94.7kgs. I'm happy it's a loss - I would have been devastated if I'd gained - but I'm still very sad that it wasn't more. I thought when you were already heavier, that the weight comes off easier?

I think TOM might be on its way...

Exercise:
Monday - bootcamp style class
Thursday - kinesis resistance training

Monday eats:
Protein drink
Taco mix with salad and sour cream
Leek and parsnip soup

Tuesday eats:
Protein drink
Taco mix with salad and sour cream
Glass of wine

(did some public speaking after work tonight so too nervous to eat anything)

Wednesday eats:
Protein drink
Moussaka
Small amount of taco mince with salad

Thursday eats:
Protein drink
Prawn and coconut curry
lc Shepherd's pie

Today's eats:
Protein drink
Prawn and coconut curry
Chicken kebab (very below average, I wont be going there again)

Looking forward to holidays

Still chugging along today. I'm very excited about my upcoming (well over a month away) holidays though. I woke up this morning with the feeling it was the end of November and I was really excited, but then I realised it's only the end of October. Lol, how bazarre.

I'm trying my best to stay nice and clean with my eating at the moment, given the breading on the chicken on saturday and the past few weekends as well.

On the good side, I went to the gym today and had to tuck my t-shirt into my pants because of the mountain climbers... I think I'm starting to look passable with a tucked in t-shirt! I still have a tummy of course, but my rolls are reducing and smoothing and not so bumpy. :)

Exercise:
Bootcamp style class

Today I ate:
1/2 protein drink
Taco mince with cheese, sour cream and capsicum
1/2 protein drink

Catch Up

OK so I'm doing it again - a blog post to catch up on a few days at a time. It's been an awesome past few days!

I've had people over or gone out every day since Thursday and it's been fun!

Unfortunately on Saturday my choice of dinner was to choose food from the pizza pasta restaurant, or eat by myself while everyone else was visiting for dinner. So I didn't opt for the latter option.

Steaks etc were out, so my only option was to get "chicken kickers" which are spicy chicken nuggets with sauce. Fortunately they are only lightly coated, not battered like standard chicken nuggets, and the sauce is ranch which hopefully is less carby than some other common sauces like BBQ. I did my best anyway.


Thursday I ate:
Protein drink
Moussaka
Egg scramble with onion & tomato

Friday I ate:
Protein drink
Moussaka
Indian - mix of Rogan Josh, Tika Masala and Chilli Chicken, and about 1/2 cup of saffron rice

Saturday I ate:
Leek and parsnip soup
Chicken kickers (lightly coated chicken spicy and dipped in ranch dressing) - Dominoes

Today I ate:
Egg scramble with onion, zucchini and sour cream
Taco mince with capsicum, cheese and sour cream
Strawberry milkshake - I used full cream milk (small glass), heavy cream and SF strawberry topping

Weigh In Day

OK so I was pleasantly surprised this morning to find that I come in at 90.0kgs... that's a LOSS of 500g! I seriously didn't expect that.

Initially I thought the 90.1 (when it was flashing around before the number settles on the screen) was a 90.7 and my heart sank, but I thought "that's about right, I've done this" but then it was good news!!

I could have lost more this week though. Clearly. But, what is done is done.

I'm really happy about today's news and thank you for letting me share it with you (the cosmosphere hehe)

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Moussaka - it was gooood!
More moussaka

Need to get cooking

So I need to get cooking again. I went into my freezer to choose a meal for lunch this morning and had only one container left! So shepherd's pie it was!

I've been looking online, thinking of making an lc moussaka. MmmmmmMMMmmmmMmmmm

EDIT: I made the moussaka. I got a little stuck when the recipe said I needed to cover the eggplant slices in flour, so I covered them in protein powder instead. Hhahahaha no idea how that is going to turn out but I look forward to finding out!

Tomorrow is weigh in day.

Other weeks I have been very excited by this. Not this time. I wonder how much damage the weekend has done? :(

Exercise:
Nil

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie - 2 serves, one at lunch and one at home
2 tsp cream

Trying to work on my resolve

So after a few days with dumb, avoidable things going on, I'm trying to strengthen my resolve. If I don't I'll end up not changing anything and that's absolutely not what I want.

Exercise:
Circuit at gym

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Sausage stroganoff
Sliced tuna with cheese

OK What's Going On?!

OK so today started off well with a normal lc breakfast, but went off track a bit with the meal provided at the function I went to during the day.

Fortunately it was European, so the offerings were sauerkraut, sausages, gerkins and sour rye bread. But what oh why did I choose to have and eat the bread?

I know I'm completely in love with this kind of bread. But still, it's loaded with carbs. And with the last two days of imperfect eating, why???

And a few times I even had "forget about it, just have the cakes" .. there were cakes provided.

My resolve is slipping. :(

What is wrong and how do I get it back??

Today I ate:
Shepherd's pie - most of the bowl
Sauerkraut, two sausages, gerkins and a slice of sour rye bread
Rest of shepherd's pie

Another carby day

So today started off okay with my lc shepherd's pie for breakfast, but it went slightly downhill from there.

I went for my mani/pedi and didn't have enough time between that and going to a show with friends, to get home for another meal. So we ate out. Tried the cafes but their kitchens were closing. I had a choice between Hungry Jack's and coffee and cake.

I went with Hungry Jack's. I ordered a hamburger meal with diet Coke and gave the chips away. So I ended up with all of the carbs from the roll of the hamburger. Seriously not the most ideal thing, and I could have eaten around the roll, but it was what it was.

So yet another carby day :(

Today I ate:
Shepherd's pie
Bacon deluxe burger, diet coke
Coke Zero (felt sick after this much aspartame I tipped most of it down the toilet)

Carby day

Another pretty good day today. I wasn't particularly focused on anything that I was supposed to do, I'm completely in holiday-mode.

I know I know I don't go away for another 7 weeks but I'm so ready already.

I also can't stop spending money. Somebody stop me! All the Christmas specials are out and I need to get my Christmas shopping done before my holiday (not that much of what I have bought so far is for anyone but me)...

Anyway, on the weight loss side. My pants are getting looser, they are actually hanging a bit lower on my hips, which also means they are hanging closer to the ground. I'm having to lift them off the floor sometimes. It's good though!

Yesterday was a bit of a carby day. That means I'm absolutely expecting (and prepared!) for the onslaught of carb thoughts and cravings over the next couple of days. Damn. Well, it's part of life, right? There is simply no reason I can't be stubborn and out-wait those cravings. I can do it!

Exercise:
Kinesis

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken wrap - chicken (no stuffing), lettuce, tomato, onion, mayo in a wheat wrap - I tried to eat around the wrap at the top and the bottom but I ate the middle
Enchiladas - again I tried to eat around the corn wraps but I did end up eating most of it

Sorry everyone!

So sorry I've missed a couple of days in my posts, I've been sooooo busy!!

So, the news!

Well the only exciting thing really is that I have lost weight (yay!!) and I'm distracting myself from the hum-drum of things in my life that I can't change at the moment, by focusing on the possibility of becoming a nail tech. I don't know why I didn't think about doing this sooner. I've always experimented with different nail designs (no, not thick acrylic nails with animal print, I'm a little more subdued than that) ... so here goes!

I've got all the info I need on the introductory course and I will be signing up at the start of next year. In the mean time I will practice with some basics like filing etc.

Exciting!

And my weight? Well I slept in yesterday and dashed out the door to work so I didn't weigh in until this morning.... *drum roll* .... 95.6kgs!! Down 900g!

Originally I was 95.8kgs but I wasn't happy with that so a quick trip to the loo (only number ones lol) and it was down. I'm happy.

Exercise:
Tues - None
Wed - Gymstick
Thur - None

I ate:
Tues - Protein drink, sausage stroganoff, cooked onion, tomato and egg scramble, 2 tsp cream
Wed - 1/2 Protein drink, cream of mushroom soup, grilled cheese on salami
Thur - Bacon, eggs, tomato and sauted mushrooms (not homemade), chicken & prawn curry

Today flew!

Wow today just went so fast! No idea where it went!

One weird thing today though, I got a craving for cooked onion. Now I do often experience cravings. I just stay strong and eat something else - something close but not the same. Like if I am craving sweet I will have sweetened tea or a ready-to-drink protein drink. But cooked onion? That's a new one lol

Exercise:
Bootcamp-style class with vibra-train machine

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Sausage stroganoff
Cream & ABC spread
Two eggs with half a tomato and that cooked onion I was craving

Catch up

Wow I am so tired tonight and I didn't realise I hadn't updated since Thursday.

So here are the stats then I'm going to SLEEEEEEEP

Friday:
Protein drink
Chicken and mushroom curry
Tandoori chicken with cabbage (ate at restaurant)

Saturday:
Bacon and eggs
Smoked salmon with cream cheese
Shepherd's pie

Sunday:
Shepherd's pie
Caesar salad with chicken sans croutons

First signs!

Today I am excited to report that I have seen the first signs of my weight loss!

I was walking about of the loo and I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror on the way out - so from my side view. I had to stop and take a second look, that's no me is it?! But it was!

SO VERY EXCITED RIGHT NOW!

Thanks for sharing this with me so far. It's on and forward from here!

Exercise:
Boxing

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Tuna curry lasagne (replacement noodle sheets of course)
Salad with ranch dressing

Following my heart

I still have the same feeling I did yesterday, about not doing with I am "supposed" to be doing.

I'm not living my life the way it should be lived. I'm not honouring what I know is right for myself.

So here are a few ideas off the top of my head (this list changes frequently), of what I should be doing with my life:
Studying more for a better job
Losing weight (though this is in progress)
Having a child
Getting married
Living in a house I own
Possibly becoming a bio sculpture nail person
Being a teacher of some sort
Living in a suburb that nourishes me

... I am supposed to be a teacher ... I am ... Of what? Where? How? Teaching has always scared me, but I think that's because I thought that job was always resigned to the school system. But it's not, education comes in many shapes and sizes... I need to look into this...

OMG I almost forgot the most exciting thing to report - it's Wednesday! Well, not just that, but it's weigh in day! I am down another 400g so my current weight is 96.5kg. It's not a huge loss, but I'm keeping myself in gear by reminding myself that a loss is a loss. I am still holding less fat on me now, than I did this time last week. Yay!

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Zucchini pesto sausage bake
Egg and veggie scramble

Potential

I don't know why, but I've had a feeling all day (and for a few years now truth be told) that I'm not living up to my potential.

I feel like I could be doing so much more than I am. I could be studying extra, seeing more friends, spending time doing my hair, I could have not gained this dumb weight in the first place, and the list goes on.

I truly feel it. I think I feel it more when I return home from the city (I don't go into the city too often these days, maybe once or twice a month)...

So the fact that I have to lose weight is a truth that I don't like. I have to keep at this in order to change it to the way it's supposed to be (which is me not overweight) but I'm annoyed that it isn't done already.

On a brighter note, tomorrow is weigh in morning so I'm hoping for a good result. Exercise has been lacking this week but I don't believe exercise is necessary for fat loss, only necessary for overall health. So I'm hoping that wont slow me down.

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken & prawn curry
Egg and veggie scramble - cabbage, zucchini, tomato and spring onion.

Sick AGAIN today

Well I was sick AGAIN today. My denial helped me get through the day at work ok, but on my way home I was feeling very ordinary. I had a small bite to eat, got changed and went to the gym. I walked in the door, said hello I'm sorry but I'm sick today, turned around and went home.

I did turn up to the gym 10mins early to try to psych myself up, but it wasn't happening.

It's TOM at the moment, and has been since Friday, but I'm usually not really affected by it.

The stomach ache I had today was higher that TOM pains anyway. It was definitely in the stomach area. :(

I hate being sick.

And now I'm about to go to bed and hopefully get to work tomorrow morning as well... fingers crossed!

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken & prawn curry
Celery sticks with ABC nut spread

Dinner Club?

Had a nice day today, went out for lunch with a friend and a catch up.

My housemate is thinking of starting up a Dinner Club - where a group of us take turns to host a dinner party for eachother. I'm a bit worried about their food selections because it doesn't occur to the far majority of people, to have a grain-free version of whatever they are serving. Like say they are serving noodles, it's hard to ask for them to be on the side. What would one eat?

We'll see. I like the idea but I have no idea how it would work...

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Ham, mushroom & tomato omelette.
100g smoked salmon with cream cheese
Two spoonfuls of cream

Cravings

I am still experiencing cravings. They aren't so strong I can't overcome them. But they are still there. They are a mixture of physical cravings and just habitual cravings.

I'm a little bit worried that I haven't replaced my habits-no-longer with a substitute habit. Is it really necessary? For instance, I get into the car and on long drives, or after work on the way home, I would have a little something. But I'm simply not having that now.

Insanely I am still grabbing my bag at a red light and automatically searching through it for something to nibble on. Of course there is nothing in there though. So instead I have some water from my water bottle.

It keeps my hands busy, but doesn't solve the issue that I really want to snack on something. I'm usually hungry after work because I haven't eaten in 4-5hours, and I want something so I'm not famished when I get home. Famished = grabbing the first thing I can and not being able to make a good meal and eating it slowly so it can be savoured.

I like being able to savour my food though. I really don't enjoy shoveling food into my mouth because I'm starving. So I have something to help me...

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Shepherd's pie x 2

Confession Time

I have a confession to make... I am 100% addicted to the lc shepherd's pie. Ohhhh it'sssss soooooo gooooooooooood. Mmmmmmmm

So I have lots of it. I am completely surprised I haven't got sick of it yet - I usually get sick of the same foods pretty quickly.

On the weight loss changes, I can feel my double chin is getting smaller! Woooo!!! This is easily more exciting than any other body part :)

Exercise:
None (worked late today)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken & prawn curry
Shepherd's pie
3 tsp cream

Sick Day

Well I wasn't too well today. I got up and went to work but left around 11am with a stomach ache. Not fun at all!

I spent my time at home sitting on my bean bag watching Days of Our Lives.

I expected a few friends to come over around 5.30pm for dinner and to go over the plans we have for a Hen's Night in November.

I made heaps of food, bought salad and everything (all while feeling like death) and then two of them cancelled because it was raining. Seriously?!

So myself and the one person that did show up, did all the planning together.

Other than that, nothing much has changed. I'm still happy about my weight loss result yesterday!

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
1/2 protein drink
2 x servings of shepherd's pie

96.9!!

OK so today was weigh in day. I sat for a few seconds before getting on the scales, mentally preparing for the possibility that the number might be disappointing.

I slowly stepped on those scales, one foot, then the other. Waited a couple of seconds for the number to stop flicking. And there it was.... 96.9kgs!

That's a decent loss!!!

I'm so ecstatic about it today!

So the rest of the day was pretty good. A slight hiccup was when I couldn't get home for dinner before I had to head to yoga. I ended up at a friend's for dinner instead. He was kind enough to offer to make something, so what would I like... would I like veggies cooked with rice in the rice cooker, or would I prefer noodles? Hmmm...

And I feel like a stick in the mud if I mention any dietary stuff.

So I looked in the fridge, I saw diced bacon, found the eggs, found some veggies and onion, and ... success! I had a make-do lc meal :)

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
1/2 Protein drink
Zucchini, pork and pesto bake
Egg, bacon and veggie scramble

Success!

Today was a SUCCESSFUL day!!!

I was wrapped up in nerves for much of the day. I had seeeerious cravings for Supreme Cheese Doritos. I mean seeeeeeeeeeerious.

But, I resisted. And I am better for it. I don't need that junk. What positive thing has it ever done for me?

That's only one of my successes today though... the other one is, I did my speech this evening and it went really well!

My gauge to indicate whether or not one's speech went over well, is if people are asking one about the CONTENT of the speech, in the intermission or at the end of the day. And so many people did!!

I also got lots of compliments about it being a great speech, and that I obviously put a lot of time and research into it - which I did. Two months' worth. But, I think talking about the content of my speech is what really puts it over the line to me. Because then I know they are listening to me, not analysing my presentation skills.

Woohoo!!

Thanks for sharing this success with me today :)

Exercise:
None, other than pacing up and down every corridor I could find today

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Rest of yesterday's stir fry which was a mix of veggies (cabbage, green beans, mushrooms) with chopped prociutto & bacon, and a touch of soy sauce - I had these left overs mostly at lunch and then the small remainder at dinner
I also had a glass of white wine to calm my nerves.

Public speaking and nerves

Well it was a typical Monday today. Everything was much the same, except for the fact I spent the majority of the night rehearsing my speech for tomorrow.

So nervous!

I practiced in front of a mirror this time, which is really useful to find something else to do with one's hands - other than to clasp them at the front, grip your notes or have them unnaturally sit completely still by your sides.

What else does this sort of thing bring up though? For those of us with a decent amount (or even a little) of weight to lose??? The fact that we have to over-emphasise some of our gestures, so they can be clearly seen.

I noticed that some of my gestures, while they feel like a decent movement, can't be seen so well past my stomach or my flabby arms. I don't mean that in a depreciating kind of way, but it's a visual fact. If you only move your arms a short distance away from you, the audience may not see it because they can't see the background between you and your arm.

So, yet another reason to keep me going! My presentations will be better :)

Exercise:
Kinesis - and a hard slog today too!

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Zucchini, pork and pesto bake
Stir fried veggies with prociutto and bacon

Very very proud of myself

Well I told you yesterday how I was concerned that my sugar intake yesterday would balloon into a several-day (or longer!) sugar feast! ... I am proud to say that with quite a lot of willpower, I have managed to stave off going off track.

Soooo proud of myself! This is a HUGE step for me!

I can't say I haven't had cravings though, I have unfortunately. But I have resisted and straight back on plan.

I really need to lose this weight.

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Two eggs and a piece of bacon
Chicken, beans and mushroom curry with salad
Veggie soup with lamb

Theatre Restaurant

What an awesome night!! I went to a theatre restaurant tonight to celebrate a friend's birthday, and it was such an amazing show!!

It wasn't so great on the diet front though. Coupled with yesterday's no-nos (the naan and milk, and possibly the sauces in the Indian foods) I added a cocktail and dessert today.

I'm trying with all my might to make sure this doesn't lead to a downward slope like it usually does. I've been craving sweets for a couple of days now, and so far they haven't overcome me. I need to keep strong!

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Three eggs with leftover kebab meat from Thursday
Caesar salad sans croutons
Some pumpkin soup (about 1/3 of the bowl)
Creamy cocktail ... bad for the carbs
Steak with salad - I left the mash on the plate
Caramel dessert - I ate this in full...

Daria Marathon!

I had lots of fun today! After work, which was a drag with people calling in sick (again! ... different people to yesterday though) and having to juggle 100 things yet again, I went to the gym and then home for Daria Marathon Part 2.

We watched all of Season 2. It's funny how Daria is still just as good as it was when I watched it yeeeears ago when it was still being made. STILL JUST AS GOOD! ;)

Exercise:
Kinesis

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Shepherd's pie
Egg and bacon w tomato sauce
Mixture of Indian meats, and one slice of cottage cheese stuffed naan
A glass of milk (the Indian was hot!)
SF sprite with a touch of scotch

I didn't end up finish the drink because not one... but two! ... bugs decided to drown themselves in it. Seriously?! I have no idea why they did that...

Thirsty Day

Boy today was such a thirsty day!! I have no idea how many bottles of water I drank today, but there were many!

I guess that means I'm doing something right - eating lc can make people thirstier because we're not withholding the water from carbs. So I feel accomplished :)

One thing that hasn't been improving though - I'm feeling a bit weaker these days. I thought I was supposed to be feeling stronger. Not weaker. I don't understand it.

Exercise:
Gym stick

Today I ate:
1/2 protein drink
Sausage stroganoff
1/2 lamb kebab

Ho Hum

Weigh in day way today. Six days after my last official weigh in, because I was a day late then. I have lost 400g.

Ok, ok, so at least it's a loss. I'm happy about that. But I really expected more. I didn't expect to be losing small amounts until I was closer to 80kgs.

So yeah, that's today's news.

And yoga bums me out sometimes - purely because there are things I can't do due to my size. I can't always sweep my legs underneath me because they bump on my flabs; can't always lean over (not because I'm not flexible enough); etc.

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Small serving of lc shepherd's pie
Protein drink
Lamb and veggie soup
Small amount of stevia-sweetened hot chocolate with milk

So-so

Well today was ok. Bit mediocre.

I went to work and the day completely dragged - at least I was productive and got a lot done though. Had my osteo appointment to help my sore ankle (have I mentioned that already?), then my eyelash extension appointment was cancelled so I spent time on my next Toastmasters speech, and then went to a committee meeting.

That was the day. Not particularly exciting, hey.

The most exciting thing, and it isn't very, is that I currently have a pot on the stove on a super-low temperature, heating lamb neck with veggies. Fingers crossed it works out ok! I've never slow cooked anything before!

Exercise:
None (again! Had too many appointments after work)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Lc shepherd's pie
50g smoked salmon

Disheartened

Well I'm disheartened today.


I did something I shouldn't have, I'll admit. I weighed in this morning. It's not weigh in day, it's only 4 days after last weigh in. But I did it all the same. So, I weighed in at 98.5kgs. That's no change whatsoever. I would have liked at least 200g or so.


And now, even though I'm writing this in the morning (8.53am to be exact), I'm having all sorts of cravings. I haven't had my protein drink for brekky yet.


I'm thinking it's the milk in my tea - I use my tea sweetened with stevia as my cravings buster. But maybe it's just keeping me fat.

I've been dreaming quite heavily lately about how I will feel at a lower weight. Trying to get over the anxiety I felt last time I lost a lot of weight, so that it can stick this time. And for what, so I don't ever get there? Depressing...


I'm already anxious about speaking tonight, tomorrow and then doing a full length public speech next Tuesday. I know it's a sword with two edges, and the other edge is a good one, but at the moment all I can feel is the bad edge. Which sword is that? The one where I stand out to people.

I like standing out sometimes, because I usually get heard and people ask my opinions (of which I have many) but the other side is that I can't blend in if I try. I'm often getting thrust into situations where I feel quite out of my depth, simply because people think I'm capable. Which is good for my life, but bad for my nerves.


My theory on weight gain is that I somehow got the idea that if I got fat, that I would miraculously blend into the background or people would stop counting on me for stuff. Well that didn't work. It's probably a combination of me still standing out for some absurd reason I can't control, and the fact I am now used to having my say so I just get it on in there.

I think it's more the first point though. Because even when I am sitting several rows back in a crowd, I am still picked out by people to say something. Even if I avoid eye contact, wear black and I'm not saying a word.


As I said, I recognise this is a two-edged sword. But my nerves right now are shot. Tonight after work I have to go and either give Evaluations of speeches, or instruct newbies on how to do this. I've never done one before in my life! But people assume I have! Something about me.

Anyway, onto business...

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Fish, fennel and bacon pie with cauliflower mash on top

Domestic Goddess

What a Domestic Goddess I have been today! Cooked, cleaned, and caught up on trash tv. I looooove my Sundays.

Today I cooked Sausage stroganoff and lc shepherd's pie. MMMmmmm I haven't had any of them yet, but I will for lunch at work over the course of the week.

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Leftover kebab meat with tomato and eggs (I'm getting sick of kebab meat, no matter how yummy it is)
Garlic prawns with fried zucchini and celery

Well I saw two very disturbing movies today - both disturbing for their own reasons.

First I saw Hobo With a Shotgun, a typical slasher film (though admittedly higher quality than your standard b-grade) and the The Room, a film that came with an instruction sheet and free plastic spoons. Hmmmm...

I recommend both of these :)

On the weight loss front, I've noticed my pee smells different. I'm going to say it's a good thing, because it means I am changing my body. Yay!

Today I ate:
Bacon and eggs with tomato
Chilli con carne with bacon and cheese (made for my by my lovely fiance, he had his with rice)
And diet coke - I don't usually mention beverages here, but I don't usually drink diet soft drinks either. It's usually either water, tea or coffee. But the movies didn't finish until 1am so I needed the soft drink to keep me awake. Boy did I make tons of trips to the loo!!

Today dragged

Today seriously dragged. I thought it wouldn't because today I got up early enough to bake the pie pictured - a fish, fennel and bacon pie. Mmmmm

Then I could potter around the house a bit and then head to work. Finish at 8pm and still have time to myself.

Well work was the busiest but longest day ever. Seriously. I could have walked out to go home at any time, if I were able.

But, now that that's over and I'm home. I have time to check in here to report back.

My achievement for today is my buttoned uniform shirt at work wasn't as tight as usual. Yay! Usually it's quite tight which is really hard to sit in due to the buttons. But it is getting a slight bit of sag across the front. Wooho!!!!

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Bacon, eggs and tomato
Protein drink
Leek and parsnip soup

(I tried my best not to have a protein drink today - I don't think it's good to have the same thing over and over again, no matter what it is - but no such luck. Work was so busy I didn't get a break so I just slammed down the drink)

Rest and Relaxation

Well today was just as busy as it has been for the past few weeks. Went to work, then straight to the gym, then rushed in a quick dinner and meditation began. THEN off to the supermarket, quickly stopped by my parents to pick up a few things, and eventually home just before 11pm.

Phew!

I need this pace to end. Thank goodness tomorrow I don't start work until 12noon, which will give me the morning to potter around the house.

My target meal for tomorrow is a Fish, Fennel & Bacon pie, courtesy of taste.com.au

You know how yesterday I reported my weight loss, which I'm still over the moon about, I think the two places I notice it are the lower part of my stomach and my double chin. Both are significantly smaller in my eyes. I'm looking forward to seeing it continue!

Exercise:
Gym Stick resistance training

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken and prawn curry
Chicken kebab with salad

Success!

So I actually remembered to wake up and weigh in this morning. That is an achievement in itself. Right? ;)

My weigh in had some pretty good news - I weighed in at 98.5kgs this morning!!

8 days ago, I weighed in at 103.2kgs and today I am 4.7kgs lighter.

That is SUCH a relief. I was a bit worried that the fact I am not counting coffee or tea or counting anything really, would affect me. If I had a bad weigh in today I honestly wouldn't know what I would do with myself. I'm feeling so happy at the moment.

Alright, alright, I'll be honest with myself. The weight loss is probably due to two major things - water weight is always lost at the start (I definitely not 'puffy' anymore) and I had my TOM last week so I was probably holding even more water because of that. But... I'm still over the moon!!

Exercise:
Yoga

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Fish, egg and spring onion mix with broccoli and cauliflower (large enough serving for some at lunch and the rest after yoga)
Protein drink

Flat out day

Well today was so completely flat out.

I woke up completely disorientated - I had no idea what day it was or why I was waking up. And late, did I mention I was late? I got stuck behind soooo many drivers going 15kms under the speed limit (wtf?), caught every possible railway crossing, and when I finally did get to work, people were sick and left in the morning which left me for the afternoon. Booo!

So no, I didn't weigh in. Waking up late and disorientated are to blame. Not me, it's them. ;)

I'll have to weigh in tomorrow instead.

On a good note, straight after work and before my evening class, I went by the travel agent and purchased my tickets to Europe! Woohoo!!!!! I leave in December!

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Curried tuna lasagne
Leftover chicken and kebab meat with three eggs and some added veggies

Anticipation

Well, anticipation is all I've been feeling today. Why? Because tomorrow is the first weigh in for me!

The only thing I've been doing is logging my foods, cutting out junk and snacks, and I've tried to elimiate food groups. Being honest, eliminating food groups is sooooo much easier for me than 'eating less' of something. Or of everything.

And I had whisky tasting on the weekend.

All in all, it's hasn't been perfect. But, I'm so sick of waiting until a time when there wasn't something coming up that could slow me down, because I just never started! So I did, and it's not perfect, just as expected.

OK so now that I've made myself feel better with justifications, I'm back to ANTICIPATION.

I wonder what tomorrow morning's weigh in will bring....

Exercise:
Bootcamp style class at the gym

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Two serves (1.5 at lunch, other 0.5 when I get home from work) of chilli tuna and zucchini quiche. All homemade of course

Domestic Day

Today has been a domestic day. Full of cooking, cleaning and grocery shopping. I feel muuuuuuch better.

I was just going to cook a curried tuna lasagne using zucchini slices instead of pasta sheets. Then while I was at the supermarket I saw the ingredients for leek and parsnip soup and then when I had leftover zucchini and tuna from the lasagne, I added some eggs and herbs and have a tuna and zucchini quiche as well. Win!

My only step back is that I honestly don't feel like I'm any sort of diet. Eating is great! But the downside of that is I don't always have my guard up. What does that mean? It means the curried tuna lasagne has flour in it. I completely forgot that I should be substituting xanthan gum for the thickening aspect that recipes use flour for. So, over two lasagnes there are four tablespoons of flour in it.

I'm not going to beat myself up over it, and I'm not going to avoid eating it. I'm going to accept that I'm having about 1/3 tablespoons of flour in each serving. I'm eating it. I'll just have to remember next time (this recipe is definitely going to be repeated).

Exercise:
None

Today I ate:
Leftover chicken and prawn curry
Leek and parsnip soup
Curried tuna lasagne
Boiled broccoli on the side for dinner

Whisk(e)y tasting

I went whisky tasting today. It was so much fun! It was a course where they taught us the differences between casks and how those differences influence what the whisy tastes like - eg. the casks previously held sherry or bourbon (and they are now storing scotch), etc.

Whisky is zero carb! Just so you know ;)
It does interrupt weight loss, but it wont make you gain any of the weight back like liqueurs and other alcohols can.

I've been youtubing and googling whisky tasting since I got home and a whole world is opening up for me.

I've always been a whisky appreciator, but I thought we didn't really exist. Maybe in Scotland or something, but not here. There are gazillions of wine tasting tours but whisky tasting is just unheard of. Or so I thought....

There are heaps of youtube videos, including Australian ones, and they are really good and welcoming to beginners like myself. It's not all stuffy and cliquey which was something I thought it might be. Woohoo!!

I'm considering joining up to the singlemalt.com.au Whisky Club. You get a new bottle each month of something new. They tell you before you receive it what it is, so you can decide against receiving it if you like, but they also include a bit of an educational with each bottle. I'd have to share the bottle, no way would I drink anything close to a bottle a month. Perhaps a 1/4 bottle or less. Thankfully I have a fellow whisky appreciator so I'll see if he wants to split the bottles with me :)

So that's my news. I'm completely excited about this.

OH I almost forgot to add... I was worried at first about drinking scotch by itself. I know other people that can do this, but I'm not so good at it. Shock, horror, it turns out if you get a really good quality one it's quite easy. Who would have thought? hehehe

Exercise today:
None

Today I ate:
Omelette made out of leftover veggies from yesterday and leftover chicken kebab meat from dinner the day before (2 serves a few hours apart)
Whisky MmmmMmmMmmm .... approx 4-5shot glasses in total (each tasting is called a 'Dram')
Mixed chicken and lamb kebab meat with salad

Had a bit of a hungry day today but I survived :)

Funny thing that happened today, a woman at work was asking really weird questions. We've worked together for a few years now, and she's just started asking things like where I grew up, if I had brothers and sisters, and also what that drink was on my desk (my protein drink) and why I was drinking it. Of course I answered "because it's healthy"... I'd never mention it's because it's low carb or anything. That's kinda black listed for general talk.

I think the phrase should be changed from "one never discusses politics or religion" to "one never discusses politics, religion or carbs" lol

Exercise:
Kinesis (weight resistance)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
LC Shepherd's pie
Protein drink (only a little bit, I was starving by 6pm)
Lemon barramundi with broccoli and cabbage

Weird brain

What I am trying to do at the moment, is keep reminding myself that I am doing this to lose weight. I'm sure that sounds like the dumbest thing ever. I'm following a diet and weighing myself to monitor progress, of course I KNOW I'm trying to lose weight, right? Wrong. I have the weirdest brain sometimes.

I remember the last time I dieted I was always surprised when I saw the scale go down. And surprise become negative and therefore I would stop it.

Weird.

I think it's because instead of focusing on the benefits I would get out of losing weight, I was focusing on the changes to my food and my lifestyle. While these are important, I have now learnt they come with the downside of overlooking the external physical changes.

I haven't lost any weight yet (not that I know of anyway, next weigh in day is Tuesday) but trying to make sure I get my head around the fact that these changes should be reflected in the way my body appears is my task at the moment.

I am sharing this with you in case your brain is just as weird as mine, and you need to get your head around this aspect of dieting as well. ;)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Chicken & Prawn curry
Chicken kebab

Day 2

Finally I think the grumpiness is lifting. I'm feeling pretty happy today. About time!

I expected to feel carb cravings, which I have, just not too strong. It'll probably get stronger as the days go by. What I have found though, is that I feel hungry and full at the same time. Seriously, that shouldn't be possible, right?

I knew when I was arriving at work that I didn't pack enough food. What I didn't count on, was my backup plan of the charcoal chicken shop across the street, being closed. Nooooo!! Thankfully I brought a backup for my backup to work, an extra protein drink. So yes, they feature heavily in my menus at the moment. I'm sure I'll eventually wean myself off them, but that's something for the future (yes, another thing for the future lol)

Exercise:
Yoga - and a vigorous session too

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Curried eggs in lettuce wraps (the equivalent of around 3-4eggs) eaten throughout the day - homemade
Protein drink
Leek and parsnip soup - homemade

Grumpy Day #2

Well today I have been even more grumpy. This time it's with two of the people that are closest to me.

I don't want to go into what happened (same issue with both) and I don't know if I'm wrong or if they are wrong. But anyway...

It's also the second day of TOM this month so perhaps this isn't the best time to be starting anything, but I'm starting anyway! There will ALWAYS be a reason, right?

My dinner tonight, as you can see below, is prawn and chicken curry. It had lots of sauce left over. Yesterday I would have got out some bread and soaked it up. Today I have had to put a bit more thought into it. So, my current thought is I will boil some eggs and mash the sauce into them so I have curried eggs. Then I can give some to my housemate for sandwiches, and I can have some with lettuce. Yum!

Today I ate:
Protein drink
LC shepherd's pie
Chicken and prawn curry

STARTING WEIGHT - 103.2kgs

Grumpy Day

Boy was I grumpy today! Not sure what set it off (probably TOM) but everything has been irritating me. Every time I got on the phone today, I got into a tiff with someone. Thankfully they were all call centre people and I will never see them in real life (sorry to you, if you were one of them!). lol

What a rush after work as well! So here I am, already irritable, and then my eyelash extension place called me to move my appointment to 2pm tomorrow. I work business hours so this was hard for me and the only option I got was either to move it, or lose the appointment.

So I had to move my eyelash tinting appointment (which I usually have right before getting my lash extensions in case it takes some lashes with it) to today between finishing work and getting to my bootcamp-style class at the gym at 6.30pm. Phew! Got it all done though... of course. You didn't doubt me, did you? ;)

Anyway, today is my final day of sugar I've decided so I'm finishing it off and going to be sugar- and grain-free from tomorrow.

I'll weigh in tomorrow and let you know my starting statistics.

Today I ate:
1/2 protein drink
Black forest chocolate - the whole block over the day
Twirl chocolate bar
Beef satay with rice (one serve at lunch and the rest for dinner)
Cherry Ripe
Boost sticks bar
Handful or more of Jelly Bellies

Psychics

I drove a friend of mine to see a psychic today. She was based in a town an hour or more from here. It was actually really fun, we went out for a big breakfast after (as you can see below).

I'm not sure if I believe in psychics, because I'm really not sure they can predict the future. I mean, how can one do that? I can understand that if you're a sensitive person, you could pick up on the energies of things past, but things that haven't happened yet??

All the same, I went and saw this same psychic a few weeks ago and everything she said would happen has happened so far. I did end up tripping and hurting my ankle, my cat did get in a fight and cut her eye, and I will be changing to another position within the same company towards the end of this year. So... I guess I can be swayed to somewhat believe, even if I don't quite understand.

Sadly she also said that I will struggle with my weight throughout my life, because it's my "barrier" from the world. So I've started going to a meditation group to see if I can somehow break down this barrier and let my true self shine through. I'll keep you posted on my progress, if there is any :)

Today I ate:
Big breakfast - one piece of toast, scrambled eggs, piece of bacon, two small sausages, homemade baked beans, sauted mushrooms.
One piece of toast with peanut butter.
Two cups of milk with honey.
Handful of Jelly Bellies.
Serving of homemade (by me!) lc shepherd's pie (yum!!)
Chocolate coated nougat bar.

Figure inspiration

Doesn't Kate Winslet look awesome in this picture! I'd love to look like her, even without the black portions enhancing her curves. She's just amazing.

There are quite a few famous people that give me inspiration when I think about how to look gorgeous but also strong at the same time. Looking like a waif simply doesn't interest me.

People like Kate of course, Jodie Foster, Geena Davis, Naomi Watts, Alison Hannigan, Lucy Lawless (don't laugh! she's fabulous!) and Paget Brewster from Criminal Minds.

Do you have any inspirational people?

Today I ate:
Leftover beef satay and rice
1/2 box of Chocolatier chocolates (the big box)
2/3 of a block of Aero mint chocolate
3 eggs on one piece of toast with tomato sauce
Spaghetti and meat balls (not very nice so mostly just polished off the meatballs)
A handful of Jelly Bellies

Power through and JFDI

There are some things that I just have to power through. There is no tip or trick or pill, I Just Fricken Do It (JFDI).

JDFI 1 - Plan my menu in advance to make the implementation easier
JDFI 2 - I feel like eating something other than what I am eating
JDFI 3 - I really can't be bothered and want something fast and easy

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Slice of carrot cake
Two dim sims (fried)
One potato cake
Shared Chinese food with friends - special fried rice, beef with vegies, sweet and sour pork and some chopped roasted chicken

Good day

Well today was quite a good day. It was still busy, the sickies haven't all come back to work yet, but otherwise it was good. I find I am eating less junk food as I mentioned the other day. That can only be a good thing, right?

I've been off from the gym this week - did you notice I hadn't reported any exercise? I hurt my ankle a couple of weeks ago and on Saturday I went and hurt my knees too. I mentioned that, right?

Anyway tomorrow is my first day back in 7 days so that's exciting! I'll still be cautious with my joints though, don't want to ruin a good thing.

Did some meditation today with a few others. Sooooo relaxing. It turned up something weird though ... it brought up an ex of mine from like 10 years ago. I don't know what to make of it. I know all the feels have long passed, so I can only think it's the fact the relationship ended up hurting me, that I am hung up on. I don't like being hurt (does anyone? lol)...

... anyway perhaps that is something I have to work on. Releasing my fear of being hurt again.

After I press post on this I will go to sleep and will see if I can explore it some more :)

Today I ate:
Protein drink
Beef satay and rice (a normal sized serving this time)
Two lines of mint chocolate
A large handful of jelly bellies